Visiting New England Bonsai Garden

Hi everyone!
This last weekend mum and I went to New England Bonsai Garden where they where having a fair! It was absolutely beautiful! If you don't know what Bonsai are, here is googles description:

1. "an ornamental tree or shrub grown in a pot and artificially prevented from reaching its normal size.

   • the art of growing ornamental, artificially dwarfed trees or shrubs."

So basically little trees. But they are so beautiful and you can do so much with them! They are often sculpted to make beautiful art.

Here are some of the many trees I saw!

So many trees!

Beautiful statues

So I got this beauty

She is a Jade plant. Jade is said to bring good luck. I think she is so pretty and lovely!

This is what I got:
A Jade plant
A watering can

Fertilizer specially for bonsai
A beginner book on taking care of bonsai.

So this is her new home! I hope she will like all the sun shine and bunnies.
Thank you New England Bonsai Gardens!
Now let's try to keep her alive!

Tea Time Ramble: Getting through hard things

This weeks Instagram post
There where none. I's sorry.

This week's ramble

It's been a difficult week, for many reasons.

One of those reasons is that I have to change my meds. The meds where working fine, but I was getting very harmful side affects and chemical imbalances. So we are going to try changing to another medication to see if I will respond to that just as well with the side affects. 

The cross taper of the meds has been very hard on me both mentally and physically. I find myself not being able to deal with everyday situations and melting down at simple tasks. You may also notice I used a lot more filters this week. I feel (wether this is truly physical or just my unbalanced perception) that this med change is taking a toll on me physically as well, appearance being one thing affected. I am not happy with my reflection and then mentally it sends me for a tail spin. So I hide behind filters for now, till I feel a little better.

Its been quite the struggle, so please bare with me as I live through this. I won't be posting as much on Instagram (though I hope to post more and mostly on my artstagram) and my regular stories will be different. 

Thank you for understanding as I survive through this difficult time.

This weeks look

This weeks outfits

This weeks adventures

Yay! A new way of exercising!
Exercise is grate for distressing!

Went apple picking with mum! It was so much fun!

Discovered this adorable Ice Cream shop witch is still open! It was yummy!

Lesson of the week

Be easy on yourself when you are having a hard time. It's easy to think powering though it is the only way to get through things but be kind to yourself and give yourself allowances. If you only partly heal, the problem is likely to come back and haunt you. Do what you can to heal as fully as possible. You will thank yourself later.

Girl's Shopping Day with a Good Friend!

I am a very nervous person.
Thus, when I unexpectedly got back in contact with a good friend I hadn't seen for over a year, I was both supper happy but a little nervous.
It's hard because I was so so happy to get back in contact with her, but in my head their was that little voice saying "What if you mess it all up?"
We planed to get together at the mall on a Sunday and I was still wondering "What if I mess it all up?" but now with "Why can't you just enjoy yourself, you always do with her!"

And then we met in the food court

And all the doubt was gone.

It was amazing. We had such a good time!

And so, today's message is to not always listen to the doubt. Let go, stay positive.

Now on to the fun part!

Pictures!

What I Got and Reviews

So this is everything I got. It is all from Forever21 with the exception of the lip gloss, which was from NYX cosmetics.


Eyelashes

I got 2 sets of these eyelashes as I was running low on eyelashes and I had my eyes on these for a little while. I tried them out and wow, they are so nice! They give a nice amount of flare to your face but are super light and very comfortable. Wearing them for a day, I hardly felt them at all. Very happy with this!

Oil Free Lip and Eye Remover
makeup remover

I really like this makeup remover! First of all, the packaging is so cute! The makeup remover is so easy to use, it doesn't take scrubbing to remove your makeup. (Shown below). I really like this product!

Cute Pink Bow

This cute pink bow was so pretty, I could't stop myself from buying us matching ones as we both love hair bows! It's so pretty on!

Hair Ties

These hair ties are so pretty and comfortable! I originally got them because I heard they where good for wigs and extinctions. I sometimes wear wigs and my friend wears extinctions sometimes (They where sold in a 3 pack and I gave her one to try out). However, they are also said to be good for not damaging your hair. Now, I am one to not put my hair up because it is uncomfortable for me. Recently though I will trough my hair up with one of these and it feels grate! They are also supper cute pink and purple with glitter. Love it!

NYX Cosmic Metals Lip Gloss

My friend bought me this lippy! Isn't it cute? It's more of a nude shade then I would pick out for myself, but It looks really cute! I was very happy with the color, and it has glitter! I love this!

It was so much fun! I hope you enjoyed and the reviews might be helpful! Thank you for spending the day with me Sonia, hope to get together again soon!

Tea Time Rambles: Starting Something new

This week's Instagram posts

This week's ramble

This has been a really productive week and a very back stepping week at the same time.

I went to Club not on orientation 2 this week. It was really good and I'm learning a lot of new skills. I also really enjoy it, which is a plus! They had been in need of a person with the skill sets I have and I am happy I can fill that gap. It's very fun and rewarding. I feel recognized and appreciated.

But with this comes stress. And frankly, the fact that I'm not used to it yet. So I feel like I've regressed in life outside of club. I find myself very fatigued and cranky. There are times nothing can make me happy, and I'm much more emotional. basically, I'm a handful to take care of.

I feel this is due to the amount of change in my life. I'm going to a work environment. I'm interacting with other people. People expect me to be able to do things I enjoy doing and things that are new. Theres a schedule. 

These things are all new to me, and I think the stress I've put on myself is contributing. Hopefully over time, I'll get used to this and adjust to this. the beginning is just very rocky. But I don't intend on giving up.

This weeks look

This weeks outfits

Club Day Outfits

Simple outfits

This weeks adventures

Mum and I made donuts!

Had a lot of coffee days

Yay, sweater weather!

Tried a different kind of boba cuz I couldn't get to KungFuTea, it just wasn't the same

Went to the pat shop to get food and hay for Fern. These dishes where so cute!

Lesson of the week

There are ups and downs to starting something new. Two steps forward, one step back. But have courage, weather the set backs and keep reaching for a brighter future!